I Quit...

… The scale that is!

I’m tired of stepping on it and getting discouraged because it doesn’t move! I hate the way it makes me feel like I am putting in so much work but getting no results! I don’t like being ruled by a number. I don’t like the negativity that I associate with the evil little thing… I don’t like the negativity that I associate with myself because of its lack of movement, or its movement in the wrong direction (but who’s fault is that really?)

So I’ve decided to quit the scale and I’m not taking measurements. I’m just focusing on myself! I’m focusing on the way my close fit… the way I feel when I look in the mirror… I’m not letting the numbers rule me anymore. I want things to be different this time! I want to be able to actually make it through a summer and holiday season without gaining at least 10 lbs (if not more)! I want my focus to be on positive lifestyle changes and not getting caught up in numbers! If and when people ask me how much weight I’ve lost I want my response to be, “I have no idea!”

No, I'm not dead... It's just been a while!

I’ve been sitting here staring at a blank screen… Should I or shouldn’t I? I like having it because I like being able to look back, but I feel like I’m saying the same thing over and over… So why even start again? Even now I’m debating if I should start posting again… What would I say? Does anyone even read it? Does anyone even care?

Well… I read it… I care… and if you don’t like what I have to say that’s too bad! I probably won’t be able to post every day and not all my posts are going to be exercise or weight loss related. I just want to be able to look back at more than a few months at of the year before I disappear again!

So with that I’ll leave you wondering and waiting with sweet anticipation as to when my next post will be and what it will be about…

Random Confessions...

1. It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything… I’m sure you can only guess why!
2. I had a million confessions going through my head and now that I’m sitting down in front of the computer my mind is blank!
3. I wish I had a computer in my shower… *see # 2*
4. I keep wondering why I go around in circles ending up right back where I started…
5. This morning to avoid heading out to the gym Jeremy and I walked circles around each other cleaning up stuff in the kitchen.
6. My kitchen is quite small.
7. I really want to move out of my small house into something bigger with a yard.
8. I’m tired of the same old same old and ready for something new.
9. Right now I’m very motivated and I worry how long it will last… I hope a very long time but worry it won’t… *see #4*
10. I just googled “clean eating” and they have a website called “Eating Clean For Dummies”
11. I’m on that website now…
12. I really wish I had a garden *see #7*
13. I love making lists… I’m horrible at actually accomplishing the tasks on them!
14. I’m intrigued by quinoa but am not brave enough to try it.
15. I’m still googling clean eating.
16. An older gentleman said to me at work today, “If I had any money I’d do business with you, girl!”
17. I work at a bank.
18. I’m still slightly confused as to how to take the above statement…
19. I’m still going back and forth as to if I want to start posting regularly or not… If I did I think I will incorporate more of my personal family life in as well. My workouts tend to be redundant and I don’t want to post the same things over and over!
20. Here goes nothing!

Motivation Monday

Where are you going today...



Playlist Favorite - Christina Aguilera "Best of Me"

Right now I'm really digging Christina Aguilera's new album Lotus!  There are so many songs on there that I love but I especially love this one...



... It's the one that I go to when I'm feeling like I can't go anymore and need that little extra boost to not only finish but to finish strong!

Tuesday Tidbits... Updates Bullet Style...

• I haven't posted anything about where I stand with my weight loss lately and that's mostly because I really haven't lost anything.  I know what the problem is, it's my eating! I've pretty much been eating what I want and that's really been killing my weight loss!  As of the last 'weigh in' I was down 2 lbs which puts me at a total of 9 lbs since January 7th... Not bad but also not where I wanted to be!  Looking back at this time last year I was down almost 15 lbs, but hey, I'll take what I can get considering I really haven't been putting in the effort (food wise) to deserve 15 lbs!

• Today I ordered a new pair of kicks!  I don't think there is a woman out there who doesn't love a new pair of shoes!  I just happen to love spending my money on running shoes, not that there's anything wrong with a cute pair of heels or anything, I just prefer my Saucony's! I've been having a bit of pain in my left ankle and my right foot will go completely numb around mile two so I figure it was time for a new pair. Since I started running I've been rockin' the miles out in the Omni's by Saucony, starting with the Omni 8's and my latest pair being the Omni 10's. Since I know what I like and the size I need I always order them on line.  This time, however, I couldn't find my beloved Omni 10's in my size... like anywhere (said in the voice of T-Swift).  Trying not to freak out I looked at the other stability shoes Saucony has to offer and found they have the new Omni 11's, but I just wasn't digging the new style or the colors so I settled on the Guide 6's.  Hopefully they are similar to my Omni's!  On a side note I think they're super cute...

•  In exactly 32 Days Jeremy, the K's, & I are packing up our swimsuits and heading to the warm sunny indoor beaches of The Wilderness Waterpark Resort in the lovely Wisconsin Dells.  We did the same thing last year, and as you might recall it was the first time I was able to rock a bikini in over 10 years...

... Listen kids, if you think I'm willing to show up this year in my tankini just because I haven't been able to keep up my awesome physique, well let me tell you... you're wrong!  I have 32 days and my goal is to drop another 10 lbs so I can be where I was last year... Rockin' the waterslides in my bikini!  So my friends, stay tuned and hopefully I can keep you better updated as to what's going on around here!

Workout Wednesday... The Burpee

Where do I start with this one?  Well, let's start with what a burpee is for those of you who might not know.  It looks like this...




A: Squat Down and place your hands on the floor.  B: Kick your legs out and do a push up.
C: Jump your feet back in.  D: Jump up.... Repeat until you're dead!


I don't know that there is anyone in the world who actually enjoys doing these!  In fact I'm convinced that the only people in the world who actually enjoy these are the trainers who make us do them!  Although my trainer does them with me so I guess I can't complain too much!  This pretty much sums up how I feel about burpees...

I have to know... Does anybody out there actually like doing these?  Anybody... Bueller... Bueller...